Mixed Water

I had been crying for so long now

and for some reason it had been raining everyday

It would seem that the sky was my only companion

Whenever I left the house my tears and the sky's became one

Sharing the same sorrow and pain

Salty and sweet, all at once

The earth was drowning

So I lift up my head and looked at the clouds

I run towards the sea and let myself fall

Ready to end it

I couldn't feel the embrace of salt water 

Instead I  was lift up by a cloud

It took my where I needed to go

Remind me of my long forgotten dreams

The sky didn't shed another tear that day

The green wasn't under water

and so it lay me on a bed of grass

Slowly

Gently

Painless

I closed my eyes at the cloud with a smile

and I knew I wouldn't cry for me tonight

and neither would the sky.   

Your departure

I imagined a life-time with you
You always stayed...
On my mind you never left...
You never back me down

But everything is always different in reality
And now, all that is left are the memories
But if it was all a dream...,
Could all this thinking-about-the-past thing be called memories?

I wonder how things would have been...
But then, it is all in my head
I needed the tenderness, I needed the warmness of your heart
But you resisted to give anything away

It is hard for me to understand
I thought you cared about me
I thought you cherished me
I guess... I misunderstood the way you stand

The dreams have quickly faded away
I know there is no possibility, it is the end
But I know that I can't just throw my memories away
You have a special place in my heart, my friend

I will remember the good times, 

All the things that I've learnt 

Every good laugh and sweet smile 

I would cherish them in my heart... 

But the time has come to move on 

And to look for happiness within a new dream 

It may seem hopeless to carry on 

Yet, it is worth it to have a dream once more...

We find us...

I can hear the wave
And just then something takes over me
I float over the sea
I am deep inside a blue ocean
Nothing has ever felt so warm
The ocean recites its song
I am washed off, lying on a black shore
It is just you and me
It is just you with me
You touched my heart
You understood my soul
We laughed and so we jumped off the cliff
Landing over pure whiteness
It was too white out there what was surrounding us,
Too white so we keep our eyes shut
Once we were on this mode
The world changes its shape
And many different colours emerge
They combine with each other
Now we can no longer see only light
But also darkness coexisting together
Light and darkness moving as one
Without ever being apart...

She

Covered in dust she was
No chance existed for her to be found
For isolated she was
And even if she felt buried on the ground
The truth is that she could no longer distinguish where she was
Sometimes surrounded by an immense ocean
With no means to get out
Nor the skills to find her way out
Until she slowly opened her eyes
And saw herself covered by the brightness of the light
But the question remained unbound
Until she looked around
It was only then that she truly opened her eyes
And so she realized what she was
She had served as a navigation instrument
So complex for some
Remained as a riddle to others
Yet her beauty was such
That admired and desired by many was she,
Ahe became the link for those who still believe in magical worlds
And brouht joy to the ones who dare to stare above their heads
She was nothing more than what most of us call, a star...

Unexpected you

You come along when I need it  most
Hopelessly and alone as my desperation grew high above
You make haste and in no time
You were cherished in my heart

It may seem selfish and non-nonsensical
Given the duration of our acquaintance
And so I beg of you to fear not
But to trust more and say "I'm sorry" no more

Don't make quick departures
And stay with me
As long as there will be laughters
You'll have a friend in me

Nightmare

Shivering, shaking...
An oddness has taken over me
Screaming, crying
Over a loneliness set for me
Suffering, wandering
What a cruel destiny I happen to encounter!
Caught on a web!
There's no escape
This strings keep me from moving forward
And so, it approaches,
It is ready,
Ready to devour me and it has been decided
Nothing will remain...

Awakening

Somehow I diverged from reality
And taking an unexpected turn
I found myself lost in thought and imagination
By an alluring darkness that moved me

Within the dream everything seems perfect
Until it became a nightmare where distorted objects
And scared faced creep under for refuge,
Leaving the blanket of hope filled with holes

You seem to smile but hate lies deep inside
You give a hand and in the other one a knife
You lean on me hoping to harm
Not only with a speech but also by hand...


What a poisonous thought you seek to deliver!
What a terrible message you want to hand in!
What a shameful character you've become!
And a beautiful soul you wish to make ill!


Don't raise my hopes high above the sky
Don't move the clouds on my behalf
I wish I could wake up somehow
And set my feet on the ground

Because even if an ocean of sadness drawn me
My eyes will be open and I will be able to see
I will live for the first time
I will emerge from the dream...

On My Own

No you beside me
I'm on my own
No you to guide me
I'm on my own

No one to talk to
Now that I'm on my own
No one to smile to
Now that I'm on my own

Will anybody hear my song?
Not while I'm on my own
Will anybody stay for long?
Not while I'm on my own

O! How I miss you so
Since I was left on my own
O! How I need you so
Since I was left on my own

Now there are only memories
I must be on my own
No one to heal all these injuries
I must be on my own

Nothing remains but a goodbye kiss
And so I was left on my own
Nothing will ever hurt as much as this
And so I am on my own

Living by Words

Isn't it strange how words turn into unforgettable phrases
How sentences manage to denote love, hate, despair...
And the moment words turn themselves into a fluent speech
A speech, seeking to convince and inspire...

There is one question brought back together by words
Which is formed by four magical and meaningful words 
THE question most women wish to hear at least once 
Because it will bring hope and long forgotten dreams back to life 


But there are other sort of words, another kind
Those vicious words we wish we could forget
Words that scare our hearts away
Words that keep us apart without turning back

Someone's life may depend on the right words
Everybody's desires are expressed by words
And so, we find ourselves under a spell performed by words
But the brilliance of our minds allows us to dream on other worlds

Sometimes we care too much on choosing the perfect words
We seek to express our own intentions
While we look for the right directions
An obsessive act dominates and so we don't say the words

We willingly chose to remain silent
And by being too careful, too fearful we forget to express
By doing so we miss out that defining, magical moment
When we freely get to say what we want without distress

Longing for Love

Reading stories of love
and thinking of you
Dreaming stories of love
while talking with you
Wanting stories of love
as I imagine me and you

What a marvellous desire to love!
How incredulous to believe in it
When both mind and heart are divided
There's nothing much left to endure
But the mere dream of it all...

The Epic Song of love
Wishing to be heard
The Classic Romanticism
Waiting to be told
The Passionate loving act
Longing to occur

No matter if it rained
She would believe in love again
No matter if in vain
Her heart would fall without disdain
No matter if with pain
She would endure it all once again

Heating Up and Cooling Down

O! Summer so blurry and cloudy,
And yet hot and sunny sometimes
How I wish I could be lying in the sand
Just sand, sun and the sea and nothing else...

O! Summer what have we done to you?
As the days pass by I get to feel a gentle breeze, gentle but cold...
The Earth is heating up,
The Poles are melting
And dear summer you are cooling down

Some days are hot and warm
Nice, sunny and lovely
Others are cloudy as rain invades us
But the stranger days turn cold, windy and sad...

O! Summer you used to be the happiest time in our lives
Sadly now, only a few days of sun make its way through
Even when we wait for the golden waves to soak us on

O! Summer I shall always remember how you used to be
And for a moment I will smile in the remembrance of the past
Joy will fill my heart by those times we shared together
When Summer days used to bring warmth to our hearts

Time

You move slowly as time passes by
And it is only then when you learn to take a look of the world,
It is then when you appreciate all the wonderful things that surround you,
You find yourself marvelled by all the beauties in out there
You love, you care, you enjoy life

Understanding makes its way into your life
And so you open up your eyes wide,
And you give out your heart
That is how you dedicate your life
That is how you truly love life

Time keeps on passing by and somehow it moves fast
You run towards the experiences you hope to have
But you stand still when you feel nature inside of your heart
And those moments you will treasure
Your soul will keep all of those memories alive

Time seems to be running out
And many projects remain undone
They float in the wind as dreams float at night
Waiting for someone...
Someone willing to fulfil, someone with more time


Both time is a tricky master of your faith
And that is what makes life so surprising, unexpected and wonderful
And all the love you have gained,

And all the friends you have made,
And all the wonders you have encountered,
All of those mesmerizing moments, people, adventures
Those will be always in your path
Those will never run out

Not Exactly What I Thought It Could Have Been...

I've expanded my horizons
Not exactly the way I would have wanted to
But here I stand
And my heart travels all over the world
Giving and receiving love
Though sometimes receiving it it's harder that it looks

But I'm not the only one out there
And you're not the only one either
Perhaps we will meet
But the uncertainty it's what remains
And even if i never find you
Someone else will be there
And before I know it you will be forgotten
You will no longer exist in the domains of my soul

I shall find happiness with or without you
And so you will too
Only the memories of what could have been
Only the thoughts and dreams
Only those will be known for both you and I

And if I ever meet your face walking down the streets
I will be glad to see you smiling
You may not remind me but it will not matter
I will remember the past and what could have been
But long for it no more and just let you be...

Wishful Thinking

Don't know what to write
My sheet is in blank
Don't know what to say
I shouldn't open my mouth
And what else to do but to go away

But my head is working hard
And a ton of thoughts are passing by
Interesting ones I dare to say
Uh-oh but I just said I wasn't going to speak again
hmmm....How to say it then?
How to convert this thoughts into useful words?

A difficult question that is
No accurate reply comes to my mind...
And so I find myself lying in bed,
Thinking,
Smiling,
Listening to the wind,
Talking and laughing to the nothingness and myself...

O! Sweet thoughts!
If only you could come true...
A dream as sweet as this is not near to be found
So I wonder...
Could it possibly...?
No, no, I shouldn't think about that
But what if....?
No, no, I shouldn't think about that

Wouldn't it be sweet to fulfil this reverie
And,
And,
And,
To see it when I'm not away in the dream
To feel it without my eyes closed...
What a wonderful life that would be
To live within a dream!

The Breeze

Sweet morning breeze
so sweet and so pure
take away all the darkness from yesterday!
brighten up my day!
push all my sorrows far, far away...
show me the happiness of this new day!

Smooth and cool morning breeze
travelling to infinite space of life,
moving the bright green leaves of grass,
touching everything and
leaving a feeling of calm,
making the day look like a beautiful one

Warm and thick afternoon breeze
up and down you go,
flying side by side and
lighting up my heart,
bringing all those sweet memories back to life
with a single caress you can mend a broken heart

Cold and refreshing night breeze
announcing the end of the day we leave behind,
relaxing our souls and
surprising us along with the moonlight
everything seems possible
and so with your touch we are able to dream once again
feeling free, alive and rested inside...

In the depths of a bright blue ocean

One step towards the end 

And your feet began to hurt 

The pain was so great 

But you had to keep going further

And so you keep on walking

Through the arid desert of nothingness

You take off your shoes

And you are barefoot on the burning sand 

Your feet cracked and became hard as rock 

Or at least that is what you felt

The pain was too great that you no longer perceived it 

And a trail of blood lied behind you

You looked back and noticed the blood

You smiled, and continued walking 

Though you were not sure why you smiled 

Or why would a trail of blood bring a spark of happiness to your heart?

The only possible answer was that you've left your trace in the world

Whether some one ever sees it or not

You were content with leaving a bit of yourself in this world 

At least that was done 

And so you took a deep breath and lied down on the burning soil 

The instant touch of your skin with the sand brought warmth to your heart

It would probably be the last time you will ever feel something of the sort

A strong wind hit the ground and formed a twister  

In it you could hear all the voices of the ones you've loved 

And that made all the sorrow in your heart grew bigger and bigger 

Tears dropped from your face and you stand up 

Ready to continue and leave all that behind you 

They will be truly happy now and you will no longer be in pain 

You kept on moving and bleeding 

And when you have finally reached the end of the world 

You saw it, a calm sea, waiting for you to get in 

You never really learnt to swim but that didn't matter 

You jumped in 

The water washed away all of your sorrows 

You were free for the first time

Suffering will never reach your heart ever again 

The depths of a bright blue sea protected you 

Nothing or any one could harm you there

You have found your peace

To Remember or To Forget?

There are times when nothing else remains but oblivion
You close your eyes and try to remember
A sweet summer breeze touches your face
You open your eyes and nothing
Still nothing, you find yourself lost in oblivion

Yet everything seems clear, pure, still
Is this a sign?
Is it right to forget it all?
Will this set a new age,
A blank book waiting to be filled?

But you feel the urge to remember...
The need of a past...
Your past means a shadow that pollutes your soul
And your heart refuses to remember
Stop insisting and surrender
You and your heart are one

Why is it that we seek to forget and later we regret?
Let yourself go, seize the opportunity you have been given
A new, brighter and exciting future awaits
Don't waist yourself thinking about the past!

A cold, warm and refreshing ocean at your feet
The soft sand provides you confidence
You are ready to launch
The ocean salutes you,
Its gigantic waves creates a unison of magnificence

And so you perform a perfect energized run towards the sea
You are in the water and in your face a smile
Floating without apparent reason
And suddenly you begin to sink
The moment has come and you fear nothing
The water gives you serenity and peace like never before
You are at the beginning, ready to be born once again

You find yourself submerged in a dream
A dream of purity and inspiration
You open your eyes and you see yourself lying on the beach
Free from all fears
Without worries left to keep
And you walk away...

Searching, Looking, Moving

At times everything seems lost
You cannot find your way home
The streets are covered in a thick layer of darkness
No matter where you turn
The light is far away


You find no rest
You find yourself deep into a pool of sorrow
Just you and loneliness
Just you and the darkness
Without love, without hope..


You try to look strong enough
You kept your tears to yourself
You hide yourself at night and cry
You lie in bed and try to sleep


And even if you are feeling so lonely and so sad
How could you be such a fool and open up your heart?
Why would someone want to hurt you in such way?
Will things ever go back to reality?

You wonder, you hesitate...
All you need is a helping hand,
A kind heart to show you the light,
To bring back the hope,
to bring back the warmth in your heart...

A believer you must become,
An optimistic,
You must get back up,
You must take care of yourself,
You must take something,
Something that will help you move
And feel better...

A cup of tea to warm up your heart
A cup of tea to ease your soul
A cup of tea to finally rest at night
A cup of tea to dream about a better tomorrow
A cup of tea to bring yourself back to life

Going Back

A mixture of sensations,
an infinite number of emotions,
endless rainbows pass before my eyes,
symphonies of sounds fill up my ears,
everything is so close and yet untouchable...

Flavours I have never tasted before,
shapes I have never seen,
textures I have never touched,
people and places I have never encountered before,
everything seems so familiar and yet unknown...

All sorts of sounds and waves surrounding the Earth,
I swam deep into the ocean watching and floating,
I encounter creatures I have only imagined,
magnificent and remarkable,
superb and unimaginable,
and we managed to emerged together from the waters,
everything seems so wonderful and fantastic...

I found myself so far away from my place,
from where I am supposed to be,
from where I am supposed to belong...
I began to feel so comfortable and to forget all about my past life,
somehow I fit perfectly in this world,
somehow this is the place,
the place I was waiting for,
the place where I would feel myself,
the place where I was meant to be born

Back to the base of the world
back to the roots of my very own self
back to the beginning of life.

You in Time

Another day passes by and I look the same,
Tired, absent and spiritless...
Somehow I have managed to keep a mournful sight of myself
As if I was the one on a coffin
As if I was the one who has been cremated...

Seven days pass by and I feel the same,
An atmosphere of sorrow has penetrated deep into my soul
No matter how much I try, I just do not succeed...
I attempt to forget but those memories will forever remain...
I will venture one day into the deepest corner of my mind
To put my life in order and gain knowledge about me.

It is the fourth night and my heart does not seem to stop
Its constant rhythm keeps me awake at night
Its permanent desire for love gives me no rest
And even if most fractures have healed, the scars stay...
Perhaps as a warning, perhaps as a reminder...

Night after night I have wondered
During the day I have been dreaming away
Unaware of life happening besides me
Unaware of the damage it was causing
But with hopes and regrets that will forever be there,
Trying to keep me awake
Trying to make this all go away
Trying to bring the love that will save my soul
And even if I despair,
My hopes and dreams will never fade away.