Aaron - U-Turn (Lili)

Lili
Take another walk out of your fake world.
Please put all the drugs out of your hand.
You'll see that you can breath without not back up.
Some much stuff you got to understand.  
For every step in any walk, any town of any thought
I'll be your guide.
For every street of any scene, any place you've never been
I'll be your guide.  

Lili
You know there's still a place for people like us.
The same blood runs in every hand.
You see it's not the wings that makes the angel
Just have to move the bats out of your head.
For every step in any walk, any town of any thought
I'll be your guide.
For every street of any scene, any place you've never been
I'll be your guide.  

Lili
Easy as a kiss we'll find an answer.
Put all your fears back in the shade.
Don't become a ghost without no colour
'Cause you're the best paint life ever made.
For every step in any walk, any town of any thought
I'll be your guide.
For every street of any scene, any place you've never been
I'll be your guide.

Random thoughts of sorrow

Sorrow makes his way in once again, the more I try to escape, to hide, to ignore the fastest it approaches with his long claws penetrating deep into my soul, tearing apart hopes and desires.

Colours have fade away, no rainbows or sun fill in the blue sky, only clouds and rain are left, nothing else remains, no happiness, no love, no brightness, no life.

Help will never arrive, it’s impossible to save someone who has been buried so deep into the ground, hopes are gone, no more waiting, just death.

Ignored, avoided, left behind… Loneliness is my only companion, the only true friend who will forever remain by my side.

I don’t know what the others see on me, but I’m sure it’s nothing good, nobody ever approaches me, smiles at me, sits beside me… What is that that I have that people only want to stay away?

Unloved and unwanted. I was meant to remain alone for the rest of my days with no one to hug me, to caress my skin, to speak kind words to my ear. No, none of that was meant for me… Sadness, loneliness and sorrow on the other hand were made to fill the broken pieces of my heart, making me feel regret and resignation.

Is there a place for people like me???

I need a guide, a guardian angel who help me find the way back into happiness, someone who protect me from the darkness.

Consolation Prizes

I've learn something last week, something rather important for me, and to be honest it was about time for me to realize that but hey better later than never and since it is an important matter I thought that I should tell you all about it. 

It happened to me that in that moment when I was feeling so sad and depressed about my non-existing love life that a guy show up, and yes he seemed to like me a lot and I liked that, not him precisely but to feel appreciated yes... I know it sounds a bit pathetic but hey who hasn't feel like that anyway... don't judge me so fast.

This guy started texting me and it was nice, since he talked about how he liked my curls and stuff and so I answer to his texts and even though I didn't really wanted to meet up with him it happened that I always saw him, close to university, downtown, and it was so weird because even though I like the feeling of being liked well I really didn't like him, and yes he was sweet and everything but also a drug addict, and he didn't work, he was 9 years older than me, he can't keep a job for more than 2 or 3 days, his parents support him, and emotionally he wasn't stable at all and he doesn't know what he wants and the way he approached people it wasn't that nice, it was weird and a bit scary to be honest. 

So with that description being given you can now know that I was incredibly vulnerable and that's how I end up sorta going out with him for like a day and then woke up and realized that I deserved something better, I'm not saying that in a cocky manner, the point I'm trying to make is that you shouldn't settle with so little just because you feel you'll never have something better. Maybe what it takes to change your current situation is to change your attitude, trying to be more positive, accept yourself, and just realize that you'll meet someone who will love you whenever the time is right, whenever you're ready for it. If you love yourself then it will be easier for the rest to love you too. 

Just because you haven't won the BIG PRIZE that doesn't mean you have to settle with the crumbs, with lousy consolation prizes. 

Be sure you know how much you're worth and go for the jackpot, that's what you deserve, no less ;)

That's what I've learned that I deserve something better and that I shouldn't settle with less just because there isn't something good at the moment, better to wait that to fall in an eternal abyss.

Sweet Dreams

Isn't it lovely when you can feel your heart filled with love? That amazing feeling you have when walking hand-in-hand with the man of your dreams. Yes it is wonderful, that smile all over your face, the one everybody can notice, you are in loved and for that brief moment it feels so real, so authentic, so unique, you feel like you're flying, suddenly everything seems to have the perfect colour, the perfect light within, it's almost as if you can hear a happy/romantic song as a background... wait a minute, you can actually hear a song as a background, what's going on? Guess what you where with the man of your dreams because you were actually DREAMING.

And it sucks when you wake up and realize that life is still boring and ordinary as always, yes you don't have the love of your life next to you in bed when you wake up, and it does sucks that you go to school or to work and on the way everybody seems to have found love in their lives, yes everybody BUT YOU. 

But hey, it's no moment to feel blue if you see the bright side of things well you are single without worries of a relationship and yet you are still alive, otherwise how will you have such a dream like the one you have last nigh,  it's better to dream than to be so hollow and emotionless, besides do you know why are you dreaming about it over and over again? Simply because you have HOPE, yes you will find the love of your life sooner or later but in the mean time you have to keep yourself busy, with what? with LIVING. All the things you do from now on will define you, all those experiences will fill all the other empty spaces in your heart and in your mind. It's time to make mistakes, to travel, to get drunk, to kiss a guy without knowing his name, you may be wondering why would i do all of those? well it's just FUN. You need to have fun in order to enjoy your life, happiness doesn't mean having someone to love only but loving yourself. And what a best way to prove this to yourself than to give yourself a treat in LIFE.  

Don't be afraid and just live. You should accomplish that dream too.