Time

You move slowly as time passes by
And it is only then when you learn to take a look of the world,
It is then when you appreciate all the wonderful things that surround you,
You find yourself marvelled by all the beauties in out there
You love, you care, you enjoy life

Understanding makes its way into your life
And so you open up your eyes wide,
And you give out your heart
That is how you dedicate your life
That is how you truly love life

Time keeps on passing by and somehow it moves fast
You run towards the experiences you hope to have
But you stand still when you feel nature inside of your heart
And those moments you will treasure
Your soul will keep all of those memories alive

Time seems to be running out
And many projects remain undone
They float in the wind as dreams float at night
Waiting for someone...
Someone willing to fulfil, someone with more time


Both time is a tricky master of your faith
And that is what makes life so surprising, unexpected and wonderful
And all the love you have gained,

And all the friends you have made,
And all the wonders you have encountered,
All of those mesmerizing moments, people, adventures
Those will be always in your path
Those will never run out

You in Time

Another day passes by and I look the same,
Tired, absent and spiritless...
Somehow I have managed to keep a mournful sight of myself
As if I was the one on a coffin
As if I was the one who has been cremated...

Seven days pass by and I feel the same,
An atmosphere of sorrow has penetrated deep into my soul
No matter how much I try, I just do not succeed...
I attempt to forget but those memories will forever remain...
I will venture one day into the deepest corner of my mind
To put my life in order and gain knowledge about me.

It is the fourth night and my heart does not seem to stop
Its constant rhythm keeps me awake at night
Its permanent desire for love gives me no rest
And even if most fractures have healed, the scars stay...
Perhaps as a warning, perhaps as a reminder...

Night after night I have wondered
During the day I have been dreaming away
Unaware of life happening besides me
Unaware of the damage it was causing
But with hopes and regrets that will forever be there,
Trying to keep me awake
Trying to make this all go away
Trying to bring the love that will save my soul
And even if I despair,
My hopes and dreams will never fade away.

Wondering about my life...

Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

I'm getting older and I need something to rely on...

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin...

YES, those above are some lines of Somewhere only we know by Keane. Why did I chose those particular three? First of all because I can relate to what's stated there, secondly because that's the way I've been feeling lately, and third well because those three lines really caught my attention, of all the others in the song well those three are the ones I can actually identify the most.

I'm 22 and believe it or not I do think that I'm getting older and yes that I need something to rely on, but someway or another I don't seem to find someone to fill that special place in my life, in my heart. I've tried but all of those (by the way they haven't been many) well, they didn't like me not in the way that I like them (I could say of some of them that it was love, yes it is a big word but that's they way I felt) and even though they aren't part of my life any more well they will always be there, in my heart, occupying a nice spot there. And I don't mind that because they meant a lot to me, but whenever those memories come back to me well it's just devastating, it's the remembrance of one more failure in love. I've never succeeded on that area, and I have always wondered WHY?, that doesn't seem to be a good idea I always end up in further sorrow and the question remains without an answer.

The other thing is that I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin, let's break up that line, I'm getting tired, yes tired of waiting for someone to like me, for someone that I like actually do feel the same way about me, but that seems hopeless since it has never happened to me. No one will wait forever, so where will that leave me, settling with someone who I may not love but who apparently seems to appreciate me, that wouldn't be fair for both of us. The other thing is that, I may have realise that nobody will ever appreciate me like that and that I should already know that I will end up alone, for the rest of my life. The sooner you start accepting the idea the easier will be, that's what most people say when they are trying to give you an advice about your job or something like that, but should I take that cold advice and start making up my mind that I'll never have somebody to hold me close when things get difficult or when having a really bad time, should I? I don't believe that's the right thing to do, but then if I don't do anything to change what's going on in my life, nothing will ever happens, right? Somehow I don't manage to find a way to actually change things, maybe I should just keep on waiting. Maybe I shouldn't think about these things that much...

Is this the place that I've been dreaming of? Why this question? Well maybe because I live in dreams, it's a lot easier than reality. I just hope that one day I can ask myself this and answer it with all the certainty in the world, that yes I've finally get to the place I have always been dreaming of, and this place doesn't have to be a location, a city or a physical place but the place in my heart, in my life, that place that I have been dreaming for so long and that I have finally arrived there.

Hopefully in the future I will be able to write in this blog about happy things, hopefully I will have a life and won't be able to write in it :P  Just kiddin' there's always time to write, to dream, to live.