Living by Words

Isn't it strange how words turn into unforgettable phrases
How sentences manage to denote love, hate, despair...
And the moment words turn themselves into a fluent speech
A speech, seeking to convince and inspire...

There is one question brought back together by words
Which is formed by four magical and meaningful words 
THE question most women wish to hear at least once 
Because it will bring hope and long forgotten dreams back to life 


But there are other sort of words, another kind
Those vicious words we wish we could forget
Words that scare our hearts away
Words that keep us apart without turning back

Someone's life may depend on the right words
Everybody's desires are expressed by words
And so, we find ourselves under a spell performed by words
But the brilliance of our minds allows us to dream on other worlds

Sometimes we care too much on choosing the perfect words
We seek to express our own intentions
While we look for the right directions
An obsessive act dominates and so we don't say the words

We willingly chose to remain silent
And by being too careful, too fearful we forget to express
By doing so we miss out that defining, magical moment
When we freely get to say what we want without distress

One touch, one smile

Life is define by small pieces of happiness,
little moments
insignificant for some
treasured by others

a single touch
a gentle caress
a long hand grip
and what is the outcome
a happy day
a smile upon your face
happiness all over the place

nothing can't take this moment disappear
nothing can't make you forget
nothing can't remove those thoughts on your head

happiness make its way through
your heart will never be the same
your emotions cannot be contained
your smile cannot be taken away
happiness remains
it may be just for a day
or a couple of hours
it doesn't matter how much does it last
feeling that all is possible
even if it's for a little while
it's worth it

Happy Endings

Love..., everybody wants some of it, I know I do, and even though I'm much of a pessimist on this subject well happy endings still don't bore me, it's true they don't bore me at all, I might get a bit depressed after encountering so many happy endings (this, obviously because I'm alone and without a lover) anyway I love watching romantic comedies, yes, those cheese, predictable, dramatic but funny movies about love. And yes, I know they are a big cliché they all end happily ever after, which if you evaluate the lack of love lately you would probably ended that movie differently.

But it's a bit of a contradiction how the more you are in pain, the more you're longing for love. Why is that? Love doesn't mean eternal happiness, so why do we are constantly seeking and wanting love? Because we are human beings, it's a bit of a necessity for us, we feel good when someone wants us, and let's face it we want someone who takes care of us, who tells us nice things, who worries about us, who cares about us, who makes nice things for us, someone who remembers all the important things, someone who can truly see you, read you, understand you, love you for who you are with flaws and all. 

It sounds beautiful, yes, that's why we want it, that's why we need it. Whenever we thing about love there is this nice sensation, this feeling, it's like happiness but better and stronger and a bit more intense. Yes, it's intense and passionate and it just makes you feel good, about yourself, about the world, you forget about all your troubles, for a moment everything seems to be alright... and it is, that's why we need love, if we all could love at once there would be no evil in the world, no wars, no conflicts, no troubles... 

Those are amazing thoughts, unfortunately we cannot live in a perfect world, it might be a little bit to boring and too perfect. Everything always beautiful, without any sort of concern, no problems, just love. Maybe even then we wouldn't appreciate love so much and it will become something like a habit, to love only because if you do the world is better, everything gets better. There wouldn't be much of a point on doing that and we would find chaos at the end...

That's why we need love, because it's so rare to feel it, it's so rare to truly find it and that's what makes us longing for it even more, we always aim to high, we always want things we can't have, I'm not saying that finding love is impossible or that love doesn't exist, i believe in happy endings, remember -happy endings still don't bore me- and they don't I believe in happy endings as much as I believe in love, and even though it's hard to find, I know that I'll find it one day, I can feel it in my heart, I know there is someone for everybody, that special person who completes you and who makes you feel like you've never been before him/her. I know I haven't met you yet but whenever that day arrives I'll never let you go. I know I have to keep on believing, keep on waiting but at the end the wait will be worth it, of that I'm sure.

   

Everybody's gotta learn sometimes

Always wanting what I can have... Will I ever learn?  Apparently I've come to this world to live in pain and to die with great sorrow, how incredibly ridiculous would it be that someday I could actually be happy, but no that's not for me.
And yet, I'm so stubborn that I can't manage to fix that idea into my mind, I'm always waiting for something  miraculous to happen to me, but of course that's so silly, miracles DON'T exist, not in my world.

There are many things I have yet to learn but I like to live in a fantasy world and refuse to accept all those ideas, I refuse to accept reality. And that's how you end up being even more miserable, because you are waiting for something magnificent event to occur and change your life completely. I should wake up and realize that it will never happen, and even though everybody seems to agree about not being the right time for things to come my way, I know the truth, I know I'll end up alone and unhappy, but basically ALONE.

Apparently nobody notices me and not only that, nobody likes me, nobody feels aroused by my presence, nobody will ever love me, and I guess that's the way life works, some people get many lovers, many relationships and others, like me, get nothing, no love, not a single proof of affection, not even a proof of sympathy.

I'm sure that Destiny is having a blast right now, with my suffering, with my misery... Well I have nothing else to do, I don't want to be here for much longer, not like this. I need to be free and just to make this pain go away. I sound pretty brave and bold, but will I do it? Will I end with my life? I'd like to, I mean I don't see the purpose of staying alive, the purpose of living... But I won't I'm much of a coward to do something like that, I'd never be able to. So I'll just keep on suffering and suffering and suffering and suffering and suffering and...