The tide

It's almost the end of the year and in spite of having a good year I still found myself into a big depression which I dare to say though I'm no expert, that it's getting worst. I don't like worrying people so I keep most of it to myself or find myself talking about it with people I don't know, people far away from me, it seems easier that way and it allows me to express myself, to unburden myself which is always good. 

But those who suffer of depression won't let me lie when I say that talking about it, crying, trying to do something different, trying to clear your mind it's just not enough, sometimes the sorrow is bigger than you and you can't control it. 

Today in the afternoon I was at home and I saw that Cast Away was on, so I watch the film, I've always liked it anyway. And the final message of it really caught my eye once more, some thing I always new but I have long forgotten. 

When Chuck Nolan, the role played by Tom Hanks finally leaves his island on the boat he built and get rescued after that, he is telling one of his friend the story when he was on that island. And Chuck said that even that he was very sad for loosing Kelly, Helen Hunt, once more he knew that he had to keep on breathing, keeping himself alive because no one knows what the tide might bring to us one day, something that may helps sail the deep ocean which  is keeping us away from our life and being desolated. 

I know I will never be able to not feel sad or depressed but whenever I feel myself like that again I will remember that line no one knows what the tide might bring to us one day and that's why living is worth it and the wait won't be eternal, we just have to be patient and see that the sun will also shine tomorrow.