About Unhappiness

Hateful thoughts of unhappiness
Continuous looks of indifference
Perfectly ignored
Rejected as a contagious disease
Misunderstood as a vulture in the open sea
People staring at me
They do not comprehend the complexity of your soul
They do not see how lonely you've become
They do not know how sad does it feel
To be alone,
To be unwanted,
To be unloved...

Every tear
Every nod on your throat
Every realization of what your future will be like
Alone, without someone to hold on to
Without someone being happy to see you
Without someone to hold you
Without someone who will take all your sorrows away...

And night over night over night
You drag yourself to bed, trying to sleep and
While you're lying there thinking
About your day, about your monotonous life
And how it doesn't seem to change
How it's everyday the same
And you try to be strong, optimistic
But you just can't take it any more
It's too much suffering for the uncertainty
Of what may the future bring
Of the life you could have
But you never will...

Tired of waiting for something to happen
Tired of waiting for someone to come
Tired of trying to change what I can't control
Tired of trying to make myself happy and forget about it all
Tired of crying
Of this life
And of being here

What shall the outcome be?
That I cannot tell for sure
But sometimes a tragedy it's what it takes to be free of it all...