Why is it that we find so easy to judge someone? Why?... Answering this question turns out to be quite difficult, maybe it's something I don't want to admit, do I believe I'm better than the rest? Am I that egocentric and shallow? I don't believe those words truly mark my character. Why then it's so hard to answer to that question? Is there really an answer? Maybe there is one but since it's so hard to accept maybe we decide to skip that... I believe that it's because we don't want to look our reflection in the mirror and notice all our flaws, and so we decide to focus on the rest, we detect them and point at them as if they were the most horrible thing on Earth (yes, this is one girl's opinion, you may differ about the answer to that question and you're in your right to do so, we all think differently).
Due to all that previous argument I have come to ask myself the very own significance of awkwardness and weird, yes two concepts apparently so easy to comprehend, and yet I don't feel like looking up the definition on a dictionary, that's not what I care about. I don't want that my perception of those concepts to be influenced by what a dictionary says and definitely not about what society has imposed as awkward or weird.
But they are already under that imposition, if they weren't probably they wouldn't exist in my head. My perception of awkward and weird has been previously set by society itself. Then this derived to a new question, don't I have a mind of my own? All our very thoughts have been polluted by the influence not only of society but also about our own cultures and the history of our own countries.
Is my mind already set to believe all the things they want us to believe? I'm starting to feel like if I was a robot or as if I was in one of those science-fiction film when the main character is starting to realize where he is and what's his reality... I hope for my own sake that this is not the case.
Have we all been brain washed by society, by our own rulers just to do whatever they have in mind for us to do? Ok, this has turn out a bit dramatic, right? Well I refuse to believe that I haven't been thinking by myself all this time, that I have been thinking what others wanted me to think, that someone has inserted all those thoughts on my mind. No, of course it cannot be, if it were to be like that I wouldn't be writing this right now, that's why my main point is that we should start forgetting about all those concepts that society in a certain manner has put in our heads, we are free to decide what's weird and awkward and why classify people like that? We are all humans after all, there is no need to behave in such a discriminatory way.
Ok, even though all my arguments seem pretty convincing I still can't help the fact that I feel so uncomfortable whenever I'm with someone who's different from the rest... (And I feel so bad about it, now that I have analysed this thoroughly) And I'm not saying that I'm going to be Miss Best Friend to Everybody because it's not the point, I'm not that nice LOL no one can't be that nice.
Could it be that I'm pre-set to feel uncomfortable with those who are different from the rest? Am I scared? I don't know for sure, maybe it's a combination of both and many other things I can't really perceive quite so easily.
Now I just feel sad and I do regret all those times I treated someone differently just because they were so different to me, and it's not fair to do that. Sometimes I have felt rejected, neglected, and/or ignored and it's not nice at all, I don't know if I have been considered weird or awkward to be around, so why having this attitude towards others? I don't see the point, it's time to change, it's time to be a better person.
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